friday
-grandfather was at the coffeeshop almost whole day. he was holding on to a spanner and he tried to stop pple going into life as he said grandmother was inside the lift. he started at ard 1pm till about 9pm? mum and i cabbed down. it was ard 9.30pm and he was alr in his room. uncle, auntie and des were there. heard that grandfather's house was being ransacked last few days. des left earlier and we left at about 10pm plus. we sat at the coffeeshop for awhile to see if grandfather would sneak out again. near 11pm, we left and he didnt sneak out at the time.
sat
-met cy and her mum at SGH. grandfather was referred to there. he got impatient and created a scene. shouting at the staff there. trying to punch one of the staff nurses. we managed to cool him down by telling him grandmother called and told us to tell him not to get angry. hs came at about 2plus pm and we went off at 3pm. met des, ade and ck at grandfather's house. xm came too. we talked, we chatted. about 5plus pm, we wento to great world city to have dinner. after dinner, the guys had their talk while the girls*ade, cy, hs and me* roamed ard the shopping center. 8.30pm, they finished talking and we went to grandfather's place again to see if he sneaked out. luckily he didnt. but he almost did. we went to have fun. reached home at 1plus am. showered. called him. i wanted to talk to him badly. but he seemed so tired. so, forget it.
grandfather is now suffering from chronic kidney failure and underlying dementia.
last night, i thought about how close the goh family used to be, how healthy grandfather used to be. but now? drifted apart. misunderstandings. dying painfully, etc. i cried. i felt so helpless. the one who used to send me to school and pick me up from school w/o fail is now turning to someone whom i dont seem to know anymore. if only everything is a dream.
later, the 3 children of grandfather's. will be meeting at my place and sort everything out. i wont be at home. and for now, i really dont wish to be at home. i feel like puking when i see the family now. headache.
