it has already been 3 weeks in school. well. gonna be 1 month soon. consider fast/slow? i dont know. i still have this mentality that i am just studying for the sake of my parents. i mean. i dont have the thinking like shin's. to really be an outstanding nurse in the future. sigh. nvm. maybe like what i used to say. one day, i will like what i am doing now.
4 more days to our 5th month.
woohoo. love my bf lots. he is always there when i need him. hmm. nono. not always! most of the times. LOL. but i guess hes really the 1st guy in my life, who has not show me any real temper in 5 months. despite how terrible i treat him. muahaha. BITE. PINCH! BOX. he has never mind a bit. i dunno what his heart will be thinking but no matter what, he just let me go my way. muahahaha. i am the boss! *oppss*
soon, it will be the 7th yr you left us. no matter what, you are always be inside my heart and no one will ever replace the love, the happiness, the everything you gave to me.
remember what i used to tell you when i was a really young gal. i didnt know what death was really like. and i told you straight in the face, 'ah ma, next time you die already, i still want you to be my ah ma in the after life' . ha. now i know why you laughed at me when i said that. to think back, i was really naive. if at that point of time, i knew what death was like. i would have say smth like 'ah ma, i dont wish you to die. because i will never find anyone who can treat me as good as you.' yes. i still admit that most of the time, i am treating my life as a dream. i hope the day you left us up till now is just a dream. i wish i can wake up from it. if i can wake up from this dream, i will get changed quickly and i will cab down to where you stay. and give you one big hug and tell you how much i love you. which i have never did in my life. i am so sorry. despite how good you treat me, i had never show you how much i love you. i am really sorry.
