where are you? almost 7 yrs that you are gone. time flies. sometimes i still wish that i am dreaming. i wish i can wake up from this dream and see you right beside me. i miss everything about you. you were the one who taught me so much in life. being generous, being kind, etc. you were the one who showed me what love was. but why did you leave me just like this? do you know how much my world darkens after you left? sometimes i tried to control my tears when i think about you. but i always failed. i dont know what you are doing now. oh man. wtf am i thinking? you are dead. what else can you do? i wish i can feel your presence. move on? its hard to move on for me. i dont know how others in this family move on about your death. i believe grandpa and i am still very bothered by your death. grandpa misses you alot too. i wonder if you still go back to the flat and visit him. you know how much it changes after you left? my life has never been as happy as before. the family hasnt been talking so much w/o you around. everything changes. you used to be the root in our family tree. but you are gone. gone forever. you are the one who built me my confidence, my everything. but you are gone. and you left it uncompleted. why? you know you are the one i loved so much. i had never love so much after you left. i cant afford to lose someone whom i love so much again. whenever i go to bed. i feel like i am like the little gal i was before you passed away. holding onto the pillow you made for me, tightly. i remember those nights, without fail, you were hummed song for me to get to sleep. without fail, you would wake up and check if the blanket was still on me. now, it is my turn. without fail, i wish you to be my side. i have so much to tell you. just listen to me once again. please.
where are you? almost 7 yrs that you are gone. time flies. sometimes i still wish that i am dreaming. i wish i can wake up from this dream and see you right beside me. i miss everything about you. you were the one who taught me so much in life. being generous, being kind, etc. you were the one who showed me what love was. but why did you leave me just like this? do you know how much my world darkens after you left? sometimes i tried to control my tears when i think about you. but i always failed. i dont know what you are doing now. oh man. wtf am i thinking? you are dead. what else can you do? i wish i can feel your presence. move on? its hard to move on for me. i dont know how others in this family move on about your death. i believe grandpa and i am still very bothered by your death. grandpa misses you alot too. i wonder if you still go back to the flat and visit him. you know how much it changes after you left? my life has never been as happy as before. the family hasnt been talking so much w/o you around. everything changes. you used to be the root in our family tree. but you are gone. gone forever. you are the one who built me my confidence, my everything. but you are gone. and you left it uncompleted. why? you know you are the one i loved so much. i had never love so much after you left. i cant afford to lose someone whom i love so much again. whenever i go to bed. i feel like i am like the little gal i was before you passed away. holding onto the pillow you made for me, tightly. i remember those nights, without fail, you were hummed song for me to get to sleep. without fail, you would wake up and check if the blanket was still on me. now, it is my turn. without fail, i wish you to be my side. i have so much to tell you. just listen to me once again. please.