well well. today wasnt a really good day.
before going out, mum tried to find fault with me. and yeah, she succeeded, as usual. she started nagging and scolding and insulting. i stood there, praying for her to finish soon. but ended up, i realised tears started to drop. then she had not finish her 'PREACHING'. she asked me to sit down. and so i did. and she continued. saying thingys like i dont think for this family. even if i treat this family as hotel, i dont give her a single cent. oh man. mind her fucking words. when i got my pay, didnt i give her? and used her pathetic square brain and think. last time, i was the one who helped to pay my brother's fucking phone bill too. and recently, she even asked me to give her money from my red packets' money. and hell ya, i did give. and ended up, she still said that i didnt give her a single cent. oh man. where did her brain and heart grow? somewhere we dont know. neither she knows. fuck. and ya, more silly tears come down. sigh. yeah. at that moment, there was so much hatred in me. so much. in between, there were so much vibrations inside my small bag. lol. bf's smses and calls and 1 call from via. i guess her preaching ended after 1 hour? and i went to washed my face and was about to go and meet bf.
supposed to meet bf at his house there but ended bf came over. saw bf, tears came down again. walked towards him and hugged him. dont know why. just felt like hugging him. then went to somewhere and smoked. went over to his house and we rent VCDs(13th district, winn-dixie, pacifier, world trade center). only mangaed to watched winn-dixie and 13th district. cause i had this stupid curfew from my holy mum again.
to bf
hugs. knew that these few days, i caused you to worry alot. i'm so sorry. i promised to drink more water ehs. hugs. anyway, i dont know why. you just make me laugh when i am down. the feelings its like. so special. i never had this feeling before despite my past relations. you made me feel so special, so loved and so wanted. you bring laughter back. you picked me up when i was at teh lowest. never failed to be there for me when i need you. hugs. i never will regret being with you all this while. hugss. love you lots.
supposed to meet bf at his house there but ended bf came over. saw bf, tears came down again. walked towards him and hugged him. dont know why. just felt like hugging him. then went to somewhere and smoked. went over to his house and we rent VCDs(13th district, winn-dixie, pacifier, world trade center). only mangaed to watched winn-dixie and 13th district. cause i had this stupid curfew from my holy mum again.
to bf
hugs. knew that these few days, i caused you to worry alot. i'm so sorry. i promised to drink more water ehs. hugs. anyway, i dont know why. you just make me laugh when i am down. the feelings its like. so special. i never had this feeling before despite my past relations. you made me feel so special, so loved and so wanted. you bring laughter back. you picked me up when i was at teh lowest. never failed to be there for me when i need you. hugs. i never will regret being with you all this while. hugss. love you lots.
